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A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
Alice Jolly is a novelist and playwright. Her memoir Dead Babies and Seaside Towns won the PEN Ackerley Prize 2016. She also won the V. S. Pritchett Memorial Prize awarded by the Royal Society of Literature in 2014 for one of her short stories, ‘Ray the Rottweiler’. She has written two novels previously, What the Eye Doesn’t See and If Only You Knew. Her next novel, Between the Regions of Kindness, will be published in 2019. She has written for the Guardian, Mail on Sunday and the Independent, and she has broadcast for Radio 4. She lives in Stroud, Gloucestershire.
ALSO BY THE AUTHOR
What the Eye Doesn’t See
If Only You Knew
Dead Babies and Seaside Towns
Between the Regions of Kindness
For my brilliant mother Jan Jolly
whose love and courage never fail
NOTE
This manuscript was found at a house called Mount Vernon that is at the top of Butterrow Hill, just outside the town of Stroud, in the county of Gloucestershire. My husband and I purchased this house earlier this year. It was previously owned by a Mrs Isabella Harbingham, née Greylord, whose recent death brought about the sale of the house. She had apparently inherited Mount Vernon in her youth from her great-uncle.
Upon arriving at the house, my husband and I ascertained that some maintenance works would be necessary. So it happened that a few weeks ago, I found myself in the lower tower room assessing some damage to a wooden panel beneath a window. My husband being away from home, and I myself being a person who enjoys practical tasks, I set out to sand the edges of that broken panel, so that the carpenter might more easily repair it.
It was in this way that I realized that certain papers were enclosed behind the panel. Seeing that these papers were a recollection written in this house, I sat down and started to read. My intention was to read but a few pages, as I had many other tasks to complete. However, when I finally laid down the dusty and tattered manuscript, I remarked that the first light of dawn was already rising.
Initially I thought to edit the manuscript I had discovered before typing it out. To this end, I marked in the geographical location of certain sections of the story so as to reduce some confusion that might otherwise arise. Having done that, I then considered how I might improve and correct the text itself but, after some reflection, I decided to type it out just as I found it, without revision.
Sarah Jane Moffatt
July 1938
CONTENTS
A NOTE ON THE AUTHOR
ALSO BY THE AUTHOR
DEDICATION
NOTE
MOUNT VERNON
MOUNT VERNON
THE HEAVENS
MOUNT VERNON
THE HEAVENS
MOUNT VERNON
THE HEAVENS
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
MOUNT VERNON
STOCTON HILL
GLOUCESTER
MOUNT VERNON
AFTERWORD
AUTHOR’S NOTE
SUPPORTERS
COPYRIGHT
MOUNT VERNON
If you tell a story oft enough
So it become true
Words like the twisting grain of wood
Or the course of a slow running river
Have ways they must evr go
Who might I be to wield the axe cross the grain
Or try to untwist the flow of water
Yet I take up this my pen
To set down here my story
Bone blood brain
What does a soul look like
If you write him on paper
Yes soil also how may he be held
Within this fragile mesh of words
Yet so tis certain
Soil hisself must find his tongue
My story being but one speck of grit
In the swelling ballad of these Valleys
Oh how I do love to see them once again
The light brush cross their emerald edges
As the sun bloom and wither day on day
Soil soul and sin too
Soon all one
The hours hurry at my shoulder
The words will not wait
Yea these Valleys were my beginning
I come here first on the black ridge of the night
A coach tumbling falling many clattering mile
I know nothing afore
I sit on the back next a basket of chickens
The coach roll and pitch stars unspool behind me
Through a banner of black
The coach cut through all
Chickens screaming feathers poking out
Through the thick twist basket weave
My hand numb as I grip tight head nodding
Not a house a tree a man a beast or a Devil
Only the road
Slap of the horses hooves creak of a wheel
Tear and drag of a wind
Tips and tussles distant trees
Til sudden the coach falls forward into stillness
A man come round lamp light furrows of his face
He reach up lift me down
My skirt catching in the chicken basket
So wood stiff I can barely stand
From above a man cries out
You not leave a child here
Tis well knowd the history of this place
These are my instructions
No No the voice above says
Then many on the roof nodding their heads
Saying Nay
One splutters and coughs
A thick hand waves down
These are my instructions
She must be left
The door of the coach open
A fat whisker man pale britches call out
What is the delay We must drive on
Other on the roof
They say No Yes You cannot Cough cough Hurry up now
Another say You must go on to the Bear
In the name of Christian charity
You may not leave her
The furrow face man say to me close
Only you wait Wait He will come
Left with my one cloth bag
On the high shelf of the night
Though old man the coach call
Shame on you
Still the coach grow narrow
Small the light flicker
Flicker smaller and smaller
Flicker again is gone
Around me nothing flat land only nothing
Not a hedge or a tree but as my sight clear I see
Here the place many roads meet
The wind does sweep in now
From somewhere close
Creak creak creak like door grate on rustd hinge
Above the stars sway and pray God His mercy
This place many ghosts and ghouls
Gather thick the air
Their hiss and spit their foul smell
Tether my throat
I would turn out my pockets to protect myself
Yet my hands are too froze
So I cruck my thumbs in my fists instead
Fall upon my knees in the grass fix my eyes
On tha
t shadowd line far in the distance
Black on black
Feel my fears calm
Were it not for that moment I look up see
Some dark shadow hang ovrhead
Black and spreading but also fragile
Maybe some girt dark bird
Moves with clanks and whistles
I know not what
But the Devil is certainly in it
My bones shudder cold fingers tight at my throat
Mercy mercy on my soul
I know well the Bible does say
That you call and He come
Even though you be no one and nothing
I never know if this be right
But now can only call and call
Hope and faith
Is the Lord there Does He hear
For many a long moment it seems not
Still I believe
Then gradually it begins
A sound comes from far away
High up in the heavens
A swishing and rustling
The drawing back of fine cloth
The flickers of whiteness small
Like light touching
The wings of flock of geese
A coming always closer
Then gathering round You cannot see them clear
Only their wings white curvd on the darkly grass
Gentle and still gathering softly
The sound a soft beating as of many hearts
Angels many Angels
Drive out legion of Devils dwell here
Such is His majesty and mercy
With them come girt certainty
Ease and courage I feel sure my hour has come
I go with them gladly to meet my Maker
Only instead the sound of horses hooves
Echo the same road the coach departd
The Angels wings fold away
Yet still I am in their care
So watch the horseman swell
Out through the shadows
The bridle of the horse clunking
As he snuffles and chomps
There the horse stops The man looks down
His face in the shadow of a tall hat so he barks
You are Mary Ann Sate
I say Yes Sir that is I
Then he reaches down
Grips tight the bone of my arm
I see his black knottd hair and wide cut lips
A red and white spottd kerchief tied his neck
He swings me up heels knees kicking struggling
My legs come to rest
Either side the horse waxen withers
Then all swings round the shape of the hill turn
The horse is striding out brisk the way he come
My hand twistd tight in his greasy mane
The mans arm round me not warm but rootd firm
In this way we travel on
Soon passing a coaching inn
This the Bear of Rodborough
Though I know it not at the time
Lights sway in the winders
Scrape of boots in the yard
A sudden shout of laughter
Smell of log fire hay and goose fat
But we stop not there
Dive down deep into trees
Then behind me feel the swell of lungs
The man begins to sing
Not loud but his voice is fine
It rolls and swoops carries all round
Heres a health to the barley mow my brave boys
We drink it out the jolly brown bowl
Sets the heart spinning I would sing too
When he stops for a moment laughs to hisself
Wraps his arm tighter round me
Only then I find heart tongue say
Sir where are we head
The man say only
The Heavens
MOUNT VERNON
I write this down for my Master tell me I must
His name is Mr Blyth Cottrell
Mark well my words
I cannot deny him or argue make any answer
My Master is not a man whose will is evr movd
I say this assurdly
Having knowd him many a distant year
Even since we were both green and but half growd
I workd for his father then Mr Harland Cottrell
A slippery saviour God Bless his soul
Twas another house another time
These few short weeks since
I bring my creaking body back
To these Valleys of Stroudwater
Return to work for my Master here
In the Grace of God I come back to my beginnings
Yet my soul is tossd and troubld sore
I did so want these Valleys again
Longd for them as dry earth yearns water
Yet I did not want to see my Master again
Yet so in Gods judgement it has fall out
Only do I find my peace
When I wake early the day yet thin
In the small tower room I take for mine
Walk out into the embrace of the garden
Stand gainst the white railing
See the dawn grey pink come up
Drawn like a veil off the town
Which has growd now so far along the Valley
Railway come cutting all
I would hardly know
These the most sacred hours
For once there is settling quiet
A drop down into deep stillness
Sometime if I am sure he is sleeping
I lie down in the weeping grass
As I did when a child
Put my ear to the ground
Can hear the creaking
Turn of the day starting the suck of the sap
The sly settling of the earth
In this the blessd early spring of all creation
Then look up at the blue above scatter of clouds
Flies buzz in spirals birds chatter
Course I should work but how might I
This is a fine noble house
Solid in the hill but fluttering also
Light as a childs toy
So many winders the light glance
They call it Mount Vernon
Was built here when I was but a child
By a Mr Partridge a dyer from Bowbridge
Workd down below in the pit of the Valley
A delicate house all latest style from London
Turret tower battlements shutters
Water tank gather rain from the many roofs
But needs butler gardener indoor maid and out
There was the man servant Mr Gains
But he is gone
Now only me
Thanks be to our Almighty God
My Master beyond the care of such matters
Now I hear him calling so go once again to the
Downstairs front drawing room
Where he sit in a chair by the winder
Swollen with age
Even a few weeks since had still top hat
Satin waistcoat gold rings and buckle shoe
Kept his stub arm neatly hid away
Now he is bare head shirt hang open
Putrid leg prop on a spindle chair
He made his fortune as a chirurgeon
In the East of India among the pagan Hindoo
So they say
Though in his family this a vex question
Who is chirurgeon or carpenter and who is no
I suppose they Hindoo would not know
Comes back here to the land of his birth
Buy hisself this lofty house
Though I think he has not so much money
As you would think
The whole place already furnishd
Everything left behind by the people afore
All now soaking slipping sliding
Into damp decay and dusty mould
Though this room still glitter vast winder
s
Draw in wavering pools of sun light
All cross the panes twistd leads like lace
You never saw a thing so fine
The air all about bright silver today
Though the rain come oft splatter the glass
In sharp early zummer squalls
One winder look out the front of the house
One to the side and about the garden
Where the land drops away
Steep almost as a cliff right down to the town
Then rise up sharp a wall of green the other side
He say Ah Mary Ann there you are
What would I do without you
This sometimes is his mood
But he has evr been fickle as the weather
A storm may come in at any time Take care of he
I have an idea he says
Snuffles and coughs tries to shift
His poison heavy leg
I want a story writ down
I look cross at him and think Oh so now it start
He never would leave alone
I know now what he will say
I do not want to hear the words
The dead are best left
Under the moist comfort of soil
Left to whatevr peace they may find
We have all the time he says So much time
But I know we have v little
He know it too for all he talks it out
He will go afore me
Yet I shall not be many days to follow